IN MY MIND...

OK sooooooooo yall may not like this chapter but i dont even care!!! just so yall know the next 5 chapters you wont like.. but once again #nobodycaretho.... make sure you comment OR ELSE!!! that is all enjoy this chapter new chapter later today :)).. listen to in my mind heather headly?? idk if i spelled her name right.. but yeah...

i never thought id see him again let alone here with another woman. who is she? what is she doinhere with him. i need to figure this out i need to ask some questions.

“michelle?”

“who?” Nicki said turning to a startled safaree.

“mr errrr… safaree?”

“yeah. i thought you sold houses but here you are a jack of all trades.”

“yeah gotta make a living right?”

“yeah.” safaree said with a big grin on his face.”

Nicki sat looking puzzled and angry at the same time. is this nigga flirting with this bitch in my face? i mean yeah i was wrong. i mean beyond wrong but this shit takes the cake.

“and you know her from?” Nicki said staring safaree up side his head.

where he knows me from last time i checked was none of your fucking business.

“oh remember when i was looking for a house well michelle here helped me find that house.” he said with a big koolaid grin.

i did more than just that nigga we dated for months and i listened to you moan and groan about some bitch you couldn't have. in hopes that one day you would see that i could be all you would ever need.

“oh as in the girl you use to date michelle? oh hi how are you I’m Nicki.”

“hi how are you. are you his little sister.”

“oh how cute she thinks I’m your little sister. safaree ill let you answer that one.”

“no that’s my best friend i was telling you about.”

“oh the one you lived with till i showed you the house? the one you work for right?”

“yeah something like that.”

i fucking hate when niggas beat around the bush its either your fucking the bitch or not.

Nicki sat up on the table and crossed her legs. she had her arms folded across her chest. if looks could kill safaree would be one dead man at this point. once she did this i could tell they were together and i could also tell that he was in a world of trouble.

“so what are you in for ms maraj?”

“a check up and ultrasound.”

“are you expecting?”

“i don’t know i was hoping you could tell me that doc.”

“well if that’s why your here i don’t see why not.”

“thank you.” Nicki said laying back on the bed.

“what part do you want first the check up or the ultrasound?”

“the ultrasound please so he can leave. he wants to make sure i get it.”

why would he... please no. i hope this baby is not his. shit but even if it was i heard what happened in the waiting room. and i also know what kind of guy safaree is. he not havin that. ill have my spot back sooner or later.

“ok that’s fine with me. safaree I’m going to ask you to step out of the room with me. Nicki I’m going to have you undress and then put this on for me. ok?”

some way i needed to make him forget that she was here for just enough time to get him to agree on a date with me.
 "so how have you been sweetheart?" i said touching on his arm which was more buff than the last time i saw him.

"ive been great beautiful. what about you?"

"ive been great missing being able to talk to you though."

he just stood there in a sort of stare. does he not miss me just the same?

"i miss you too." safaree said.

"seems like your friend is a hand full."

"you dont know the half of it but sometimes its worth it."

"so when can we.. wait are you seeing someone?"

"yeah i am.."

"well maybe we can relive some of those good times as friends one day."

"that would be great."
"ok its a date."

"i can remember my whack lines to you when we first met."

"i remember them too i thought you would never stop."

we entered the room both in laughter. i could tell she was angry and at this point i new for a fact they were together. so i did extra shit/ flipping my hair and turning on my flirty voice.


“dang how much time did a girl need to change into a robe.” she said under her breath checking her nails.

i knew i was getting to her. she knew she had competition and i continued to let her know. game is on my the best bitch win,

“what was that ms maraj?”

“nothing glad to see you two catching up is all.”

“oh yeah. sorry about that.”

“mmhmm.” Nicki said laying back on the table.

“ok so ms maraj I’m going to lift the bottom of the robe and you can cover with this. I’m going to put this gel here and this will allow me to see.”

“ok whatever.” Nicki said with attitude.

safaree and two wouldn't be professional. id also lose a client. so keep it cute was all i could tell my self.

“it looks like you are…”

“not the father.” Nicki said smiling.

i couldn't help my self. i had to laugh because in my head i was thinking that same thing. god knew everything in me did not want safaree to be the father to this child.

“ha ha a little humor i see but no you are almost three months pregnant.”

“wait impossible can you repeat that again?”

“sure can your almost three months and by the looks of things your having two.”

“wait ima need you to slow the fuck down take some of that cute out ya voice liddle lady and bring that shit all the way the fuck back. did you just tell me that its two fucking babies in there.”

i wanted to laugh so bad, she knew what was going on the whole time. she told me to take the cute out of my voice.

“no did you just say she was pregnant?”

“yes to both of the questions. so is the father on tour or at work? it would be nice to come in our next appointment with him so you can hear the babies heart beat together its a great experience.”

” well thanks for letting him know..” Nicki said reaching for her jeans and shirt.

“wait what?” michelle said looking a bit lost.
“just what i said doc. thanks for letting him know.”

“safaree your?..”

i watched out the corner of my eye seeing her smirk on her face. as she got dressed she some what laughed. getting him back would be a fight, but it was on i was willing to be apart of. i watched as she brushed past us. she was a hand full. i needed to know was she the woman he left me for. was she the one he talked about. the bitch that couldn't see that she had a great man in her face but she wanted the trash who treated her like a back up plan. the guy who told her what she wanted to hear when she wanted to hear it rather than the guy who was always honest with her.

“and i called for a second car you can go anywhere in the world other than my house.”

i watched as she made her dramatic exit but know it was my turn. i need answers and i need them now.

“your with her now safaree? so that’s why you never called me back that day? i thought we were good. that i made you happy?”

“you do… i mean did.. look Michelle is your number the same?”

“it always has been safaree.”

“ok ill call you but right now i have to go.”

“is the the ill call as in i wont or ill call as in you will really call this time.”

“the second one but i really really have to go!” safaree yelled down the hall running backwards.

he raced down the halls to her i could have sworn they would break up this day. that would make me a  rebound for a while but soon id be able to have him all to my self. patients is a virtue. i made it back to the examination room we had just been in and could hear them argue outside the window.

“Nicki stop!”

Nicki reached for the door and begin to climb into the SUV.

“Nicki!” safaree said grabbing her arm pulling her back out of the SUV.”

“nigga what the fuck do you think your doing?”

she just stood giving him a cold stare as he took her hand and she snatched it away. i knew he'd call if things didn't work out with her tonight. but her promised so even if things did knowing the man he is he'd still call me.

“let me talk to you!”

“don’t fucking touch me safaree!”

“what the fuck is wrong with you.”

“what the fuck is wrong with me safaree you gotta be fucking kidding me? or were you too much in la la land with that bitch michelle to notice your fucking GIRL FRIEND!”

“what is this about Nicki? how this this all get put on me?”

“i never said it was all on you but why do you even fucking care? dont you have some one to go flirt with?”

“i wasn’t flirting Nicki who was i flirting with?”

“don’t play with me right now safaree i will slap the shit out of you!” Nicki said pointing in his face.

“don’t put your finger in my face onika.”

“nigga whatever.” Nicki said hopping in the car.

“Nicki where are you going.”

“well first I’m going to get my meds for MY babies. then ill be going to the store to buy something to cook for dinner. after that ill be going to my house where i live.” Nicki sad slamming the door.

“Nicki open the door.” safaree said banging on the window still holding on to the door knob.

her window was half down so safaree stuck his hand in the window and popped the lock.

“move!” he said to her putting his foot in the car.

she just put her glasses on and crossed her arms not moving at all giving blank stares off to who knows where. i saw him back away from the SUV and him wipe at his face. he said something to her but who knows what it was. this was it i could get him to agree to anything now. i just needed to see if the number i had worked. she put glasses on and crossed her arms not moving at all giving blank stares off to who knows where. i saw him back away from the SUV and him wipe at his face. he said something to her but who knows what it was. this was it i could get him to agree to anything now. i just needed to see if the number i had worked. so i sent a text.

can we talk when i get off later? ~michelle

yeah sweetheart whatever you would like ~safaree

your place or mine ~miichelle

mine ~safaree

or yours would work ~safaree

i knew he'd try to turn it around to mine since he stays down the street from her god forbid i came over and my car was in the drive way. that would be perfect if she had to make a trip to the store or something she would see my car and not know who it was.

your place is fine ~michelle

i didn't want him to know where i lived until i knew he would be with me.

ok thats fine michelle. what time will you be here? so i know to be home. ~safaree

6:30 gives me time to go home and change out of work clothes. ~michelle

ok sounds good. wait this is just on a friend tip right? ~safaree.

yes safaree this is just a closure type conversation. ~michelle

i had much more than that planned but first to find an outfit to make hie heart damn near stop. my closet was full of all sorts of jeans, dressed, shoes and smells to make the ugliest bitch in the world look like a million bucks i needed to get to him before he even thought about talking to her. what ever moves i wanted to make i had to make it quick i could keep on the dress i had on but no my black one like this with my pink Giuseppe heels perfect. i could let my hair flow completely down my back. i got to my house around 430 took a quick shower made a quick change and headed back out the door. i sprayed my Cloe perfume a block away from his house. i let my windows down in my Mercedes  so my hair would have the sexy messy curl look. pulling up to the  house i parked my car on the right side of the drive way and walked up to the door. my heart raced but this i knew was the easy part. the hard part would be him forgetting that they were ever together. him forgetting her name and what just happened. him forgetting for a second that she was his baby mama and him wanting me. this was a challenge i was willing to take.

"hey how are you?" he said opening the door.

"good no better than when i saw yo four hours ago."

"better than me i hope?"

"much better." i said in search for something to change the subject about.

"would you like anything to drink?"

"what did you have in mind?"

"well don't know if you drink but i started with ciroc and orange juice."

"yeah that would be fine."

i really wasn't a heavy drinker but i figured id drink a little and when i could feel me getting tipsy is stop.

"so.." i said trying to break the ice.

"im guessing you want to know why?"

"yeah i do."

"i wish i knew the answer to that."

"do you love her safaree?" i was kinda developing a soft spot for their relationship.

"yes more than anything in the would."

"then thats why. and i can understand that."

i pretended to care even though i could care less. the more he talked the more he drank. the more his thoughts faded from her to flirting with me. no matter how many times i told him i wanted him to stop at that glass he continued until the mini ciric bottle was empty.

"i forgot how beautiful you are. dance with me?" he said pulling me from the couch.

he moved the table out of the way and his living room became a dance floor. he pulled me close and buried his nose into my neck. his hands moved up the small of my back to my neck. he griped my hair and kissed my neck.

"safaree." i said pretending to stop him. in my mind i was screaming yes take me.

he stopped pulled away and sat on the couch and stared off into space. r kelly Begin to play on his pandora. my mind is telling em no but my body my body is telling me yes. you better sing it r kelly i said to my self this man knows he wants me." i crossed my legs sitting next to him on the couch.

"I'm sorry i don't know what came over me michelle. last thing i want you to do is be a rebound i know how that feels and.."

i cut him off that's not what i wanted to hear i wanted him to take me right here right now. i was ready to have him and by the budge in his sweats he wanted me too.

"your fine safaree. its fine."

she shifted in his seat pulling his sweats at his knee. he grabbed a hold of my hand and motioned for me to sit on his lap. i got up and stood between his parted legs. i placed my butt on the couch and draped my legs across one of his. i grabbed a hold to  his neck as his hands traveled  down to my plumped ass. he continued what he started on our some what dance floor as my hands traveled up his head removing his hat placing it on my head. his lips moved from my neck to my lips kissing me like no man ever has before. i broke the kiss only to reposition my self on his lap. i straddled him as his hands moved from the small of my back to my Ass. my dress rising as i straddled him revealing my panties. his hands explored my body as our kiss deepened i could feel his rock hard erection against my panties making my center throb. his hands explored my body until he suddenly stopped.

"is something wrong?"

"everything is wrong. im not suppose to be here with you doing this with you . michelle you have to go." he said getting up walking into the bathroom.

i got up and fixed my clothes. i grabbed my purse and headed for the door. driving down the street i saw her. she stood in the door way with some man. she looked like she had been crying. the man reached for her to pull her in for a hug. he entered and the door closed. all i could do was smile because i knew where safaree was on his way to and it would pay off in my favor.