ROMANTINES DAY (BEFORE YOU WALK OUT OF MY LIFE)

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Nicki stepped out the shower looking over her body. she looked over every inch and examined her hips. she stood in the full body mirror looking her self over for a long time. reaching for her tooth brush she pressed the button to her ipod and sung to kaynes work out plan playing out the speakers of her ipod deck. she danced to the music and brushed her teeth. when she was all done she mocked as the girls told weight loss stories at the end of the song. nicki sat on the bed grabbing her oatmeal lotion from the night stand. she watched as safaree walked past in his towel to the closet. his chest glistened as the sun from the window beamed on his wet back.

“oh so that’s how you feel?”

“what?”

“no happy valentines day nothing you just gone walk by looking awl nice in your towel with your glistening abs and not say shit.”

“no.”

“no what? safaree are you still mad at me for last night?”

“yes.”

“are you just gonna give me one word answers today.”

” i dont know.”

“oh three words that’s nice.”

“what do you want me to say nicki?”

“say that you forgive me safaree.” she said rapping he hands around his waist laying her head on his chest.

“i cant do that.”

“then what are you hear for?” she said letting go of him.

“do you really wanna do this CD singing alone.”

“well i should. not like you will be talking to me anyway.”

“OK have it your way.” safaree said placing the fit he had put together back in the closet on the chase.

“faree no really you act like this was my first time getting drunk?”

“no this was your first time getting drunk saying what you said to me.”

“well what did i say? i wont know unless you tell me.”

“oh i know damn well you seen that video.”

“but faree i said i was sorry. what do i have to do to make it up to you?”

“nothing onika I’m good.”

“YOUR NOT! SO DONT SAY YOU ARE BECAUSE IF EVERY THING WAS ALL GOOD LIKE YOU SAY THEY ARE YOUD BE TALKING TO ME!”

“don’t do this right now.”

“now is as good a time as any.”

“i promise u don’t want to do this right now.”

“no we are going to do this right now safaree.”

“how the fuck am i suppose to act when you told me last night you thought you should have stayed withe drake.”

“i said that? i didn’t say that! I’ve been sooo happy with you. more then I’ve ever been with drake safaree i didn’t say that.”

“yes you did. have i ever lied to you onika?”

“no.”

“well why in the hell would i need to start doing so now.”

“safaree can you lower your voice please.”

“no you wanted to talk about it now so we will talk.”

“i said talk not yell.” she said brushing past him to the closet.

“which i why i wanted to wait until i wasn’t so angry. you know what Nicki i don’t understand you. you say your happy but why do i feel like I’m failing? and why would you say what you said last night.”

“safaree i don’t know how many times ill have to tell you. i didn’t mean what i said.”

“a drunk man tells no lies. and neither does a woman for that matter.” safaree said stepping out of the closet with sweats and a t-shirt.

safaree opened the door to the room making his way to the other bathroom. he slipped his shirt over his head and pulled his sweats over the towel. taking the towel off laying it on the sink he slipped his fitted cap onto his head. safaree reached for his keys and headed for the door.

“so your going to leave?”

safaree dropped his shoulders and took his hands off the door. he turned his head to the side looking at the wall.

“you just said you didn’t want me here.. what are you here for? remember? or do you not remember that either?”

“safaree please don’t DO THIS!”

“don’t do what nicki? I’m TIRED! I’m tired of trying.”

“what do you mean your tired of trying? what have you been trying to do?”

nicki’s words pierced at safarees heart. he was lost. all this time he was trying to prove him self to nicki. make them work. it seemed she changed from the person she was to him her birthday week and even before till now. her emotions were off. she yelled at him more. everything he did somehow made her angry.

“you know what nicki fuck it I’ve been trying not to hurt your feelings lately but this.. its getting no where.”

“don’t protect my feelings nigga i never asked you to do that.”

“since your birthday you’ve been acting weird towards me. well not your birthday a few weeks after. i thought it was your period but you never came on… wait a minute you never came on. oh shit nicki are you pregnant?”

“what safaree nigga no I’m not pregnant?” nicki said sounding unsure.


“onika don’t play with me right now if you are now is the time to say something. i mean that could explain a lot.”

“what do you mean it could explain a lot?”

“well you been really moody. you eat a hell of a lot now like no ones food is safe. your hips get more and more luscious I’ve noticed because I’m always wanting to grab a hold of them and well do a lot of things in a lot of places. your skin is glowing and i just thought it could have been the facial you got that one day. your hair is thicker and very shiny may i add and you do nothing to it to make it look that way.”

“safaree I’m a girl. we go through changes.”

“not changes like that. when was the last time you came on your period? cuz i cant remember the last time you told me no. and i also cant remember the last time I’ve haven’t worn a condom.”

“me either that’s why I’m saying i cant be.”

“just because i had on a glove don’t mean it didn’t break or didn’t have a hole or something nicki you could be and i think you should go get checked out.”

“ill go buy one and see what it says if it says no then no need for me to go to the doctors. besides i don’t really have time for all that. my schedule is too demanding this week.”

“your schedule shouldn’t come before your health baby.”

“oh so now I’m back to baby?”

“do you want me to go back to being mad at you?”

“no i just want you to forgive me I’m sorry and i cant take watching you walk out on me. not now safaree.” she said laying up against his chest. “really not ever.”

“just change what your doing nicki. i mean at least help me believe you giving us a REAL try.”

“but i am giving us real try safaree.”

“but I’m not believing it. like why must i put fourth 100% when you all you giving out is 50%. that shit don’t sit right with me and honestly it hurts.”

“i know I’m sorry. ill try. but loosing you is not an option for me.”

“And me leaving you is not and option for me either. i want us to work so bad nick your all I’ve ever wanted. all I’ve ever needed to be happy but you gotta stop pushing me away.”

“OK.”

“now get dressed so i can take you to your barbs.”

“OK.” Nicki said letting go of safaree and returning to her room to get dressed.
……

Lauren i need you to do something for me.~ Nicki

whats up?~lauren

i need you to get a pregnancy test for me.~nicki

Nicki you pregnant?~lauren

i don’t know safaree thinks i am i have been sick a lot my stomach is weak and that’s not normal for me. ~nicki

OK well when i get it do you want me to bring it to you? ~lauren

no can we do this at your house? ~nicki

of course nick just let me know when your on your way. is safaree coming too? ~lauren

no I’m going to tell him its a girls night out thing.~nicki

oh god Nicki are you going to tell him if you are? ~lauren

idk….. ~nicki

your not thinking of getting rid of it are you? ~lauren

HELL NO! that is NOT an option it just… nothing we will talk. ~nicki

OK see you later nick ~lauren

“what was that?” safaree said looking over at Nicki taking her phone along with her sharpie and tossing it in her purse.”

“nothing last minute things.” she said shooting him a smile.

“oh OK.” he said picking up all the gifts from her barbs.

“why do they get me so much?”

“i don’t know but a nigga tired of leaving with tons of shit though.”

“safaree..”

“what you don’t have to Carry these bags they mad heavy.”

“sounds like someone is a hater.”

“no i get gifts too. its just this shit. its like what do we have martin for?”

Nicki got in the car not replying to his last comment. she put on her seat belt and begin to stare out the window.

“you sure you OK baby?”

“yeah I’m fine.” she said breaking her train of thought.

“well i got you something.”

“what do you mean.”

“it is valentine’s day.”

“oh yeah that.” she said looking back out the window.

“Nicki hello? OK something is really wrong.”

“nothing is wrong.”

\“yes it it i just said i got you something and you blew me off. what tip?”

“what you get.”

“wanna open it up?”

Nicki took a look at the bag. judging by the size it was jewelry. she removed the decorative paper covering the box at the bottom of the bag and removed the box. she sat the bag on the floor and opened the box. in it was a locket.

“open it up.”

Nicki took out the huge locket she opened it and read the engraved part.

onika you are my world. with out you my heart doesn’t beat the same. no matter where we are in the world or who we are with my heart will for ever be yours. ~safaree

safaree watched as tears flowed down her face. on the other side of the locket sat a picture of them both. (the super bass picture.)

“safaree.”

“yes?”

“thank you and i love you just the same.”

“your welcome.” he said removing the tears from her face placing the locket round her neck.

Nicki turned back to the window she pressed her head against the cold glass and drifted off in thought.

“wait we going the wrong way.”

“no I’m going to Laurens.”

“oh well why didn’t you say something.”

“i forgot until you just said something.”

“well how long we staying over here.”

“well WE are not staying. IM staying.”

“oh are you mad at me?”

“no I’m not mad baby its girls night.”

“wait on valentines day?”

“yeah and so you know your gift was suppose to be unwrapped this morning.”

“oh what was it?”

“it was me until we got into our argument but when you go back to the house it may be something behind the night stand on my side of the bed.”

“oh OK i was about to say we have time for that right now looking at this traffic.”

“you got some nerve to think i would even with a driver and security in here.” she said side eyeing him.

“what?”

“nothing safaree.”
…….

“oh my god Nicki come on how long does it take for you to pee on a dam stick?”

“Lauren u and i both know i pissed on the fucking stick them moment i opened the paper to it.”

“well what’s taking you so lon—-. oh my damn Nicki what does that damn stick say.”

“from the looks of it your an auntie.”

“what wait how.”

“you see this here.” Nicki said opening the door. “this line means maybe and the second one says sike bitch you pregnant.” she said flopping down on the bed.

“well its not the end of the world Nicki.”

“i know I’m just trying to think when though. and how could have we been so careless.”

“i mean its safaree I’m sure he will be there for the baby Nicki.”

“i have no doubt in my mind that he will be Lauren but not now.”

“not now? now is as good a time as ever. you not getting any younger.”

“i know that but the tour. the barbs.”

“they will have to wait.”

“not if i can help it.”

“Nicki they will understand.”

“i know but its a huge let down. i could be like alicia. and still preform until I’m ready to pop.”

“but we both know safaree and as soon as he knows its a no go.”

“well then he wont know.”

“noooo Nicki you know I’m not good with lies. he always catches me.”

“well how bout some paid time off then.”

“oh hell no Ive been waiting on Paris for a long time.”

“well then you’ll learn to keep quite then.” Nicki said getting up grabbing her coat.

“where you going?”

“home.”

“oh use me for my bathroom and then split huh.”

“yeah but no wait.”

“what?”

“pee on this!” Nicki said throwing the second test across the room.

“pee on it for what.. oh OK i got you.”

nicki’s place….

“safaree? safaree you here?” Nicki said looking around the dark room putting her keys in the basket.

Nicki walked up the stairs with the test in her hand. she put her coat on the hanger in the closet and walked into the closet to find night clothes. she peaked her head out the closet to see if she could see safaree because she couldn’t remember if she saw him on the bed when she came in. Nicki saw his body move the blanket up and down and she returned to her quest of finding something to wear to sleep. she grabbed the shirt safaree had on that morning and put it over her head. she then took his stewie night pants and slipped them on. she walked to her side of the bed and grabbed her charger to charge her phone. her slippers slipped off her little feet as she got in the bed and slipped under the covers. after she got in safaree reached over and grabbed a hold of her waist.

“what you do over Laurens?”

“nothing a little girl talk. i thought you was sleeping.”

“you know i cant sleep when your not here i was trying to sleep.” he said kissing her neck.

“well mama’s home.” Nicki said smiling revealing her dimples.

“and that I’m glad about.”

“i got a pregnancy test.”

“wait really.” safaree said sitting up in the bed turning on his lamp.

“yes really why are you so happy?”

“i mean don’t you want to know if you are?”

“i.. yes safaree i do.”

“why don’t you sound to happy about it?”

“well i don’t know safaree what if i was.”

“it wouldn’t be like i planed us going but id be happy either way.”

“what do you mean like you planned?”

“i mean i wanted to marry you first Nicki.”

“you wanna marry me?”

“eventually when i think we are ready for it yeah.”

“so you don’t think I’m ready for it safaree?”

“that’s not what I’m saying you know that’s not what I’m saying.”

“then what are you saying?”

“OK wait are you ready for it Nicki?”

“ready for marriage?”

“i was just saying. you never asked me was i ready we never talk about that stuff safaree.” Nicki said fixing at the blanket.

“what do you mean you never let me in to were we can talk about it. it just so happens that i brought it up today.” he said fixing at a piece of hair hanging in her face.

“can we just sleep and talk about this in the morning baby I’m tired.”

“no why cant we talk about i now. its a simple question with a simple answer onika.”

“so now why am i onika you mad nigga.”

“no i just hate when you push things off. if we get off the subject you r never going to answer the question.”

“OK safaree yes I’m ready.”

“so if i pulled out a ring right now you would say yes.”

“whoa wait when did you get a ring.”

“i dont have one but I’m saying if i did and pulled out a ring would you say yes.”

“id have to think about it i mean that wold be me saying yes to being with you for the rest of my life. i don’t know if i can handle that part just yet.”

“OK Nicki I’m being serious.”

“and I’m not?”

“i hope not”

“tuh.”

“what was that?”

“what was what?”

“that little sound you just made?”

“oh nothing baby. no I’m not serious.”

“OK well then I’m happy to know that your ready.”

“mmmhmm now turn out that light and lets sleep.”

“no.”

“no what i answered the question safaree.” Nicki said sitting back up.

“aren’t you going to take the test?”

“what tes— oh the pregnancy test?”

“yes.”

“you want me to take it right now?”

“yes better now than us wait till the morning.”

“fine safaree.” Nicki said getting up to get the box.

Nicki walked towards the bathroom with safaree on her heels.

“excuse me sir.” Nicki said once she got to the bathroom door. “what are you doing?”

“watching.”

“can you watch from the bed that’s awkward.”

“OK Nicki please just hurry up.”

“OK OK..”

Nicki closed the door to the bathroom and stood by the counter. she looked at the stick that Lauren had took. in her mind she wished hers came out negative but her heart was all ready attached to the live growing inside her. she only had to keep it from safaree until she went to London. she knew her us barbs would understand. and if not she would try and figure out a way to make it up to them. Nicki waited for five minutes and then opened the door.

“so?” safaree said with a big grin.

“no safaree now can we go to bed?”

“no really? its a no?” he said smile fading off his face.

“yeah safaree its a no now can we please go to bed?”

“yeah i guess we can now.”

“are you really that sad about it?”

“yeah i am i really wanted it to be positive.”

“wait you wanted it to be positive?”

“yeah Nicki i know i want to spend the rest of my life with you. so a child… a child would have made me happy.”

“well maybe one day ill be able to give you one. now is just not the time safaree.”

“yeah.” he said turning out the light grabbing a hold to Nicki’s waist.

the next morning…..

“martin can you make me a doctors appointment?”

“yeah for what day and what time.”

“you got my schedule what ever day is open.” Nicki said looking in the cupboard for a breakfast bar.

“today is open.”

“today is fine call and see if you can get me in today.”

“what is is for?”

“i need a check up”

“don’t you got to the gyno for that?”

“not all the time just make the damn appointment boy.”

“OK OK you don’t have to be mean about it.” martin said walking into her study.

“safaree? are you awake yet?”

“well with you yelling like that who wouldn’t be?” martin said.

“shut up martin and make my damn appointment.”

“its done.”

“what time is it for? safaree!”

“damn nicki ill go wake him and its made for 12.”

“12? well what time is it now?”

“9:30” martin said walking up the stairs.

“why does it feel so late then.” Nicki said sitting in the chair.
martin walked into nicki’s room to safaree sitting on the chase in the closet.

“oh you was up all this time?”

safaree just sat on the chase with no answer staring at the walls in the closet.

“yo man you OK you look like you seen a ghost.” martin said waving his hand in front of safarees face.

“safaree. man don’t make me call Nicki in here.”
safaree just sat with a stick in his hand.

“OK you asked for it. big daw—”

“shh OK just be quiet.”

“oh. OK. but whats going on?”

“do you know how to read these things? ” safaree said holding up the pregnancy test.

“naw but because you a guy i would think that two lines means not pregnant.”

“no i ain’t take this nigga!”

“well if you ain’t pee on it who did… ewwww safaree man put that thing down. that is unsanitary!”

“shhhhh! oh my god guy why are you so loud.”

“here’s the box right here. is says two lines mean pregnant one means not.”

“OK she took both of these but one says yes and one says no i don’t get it.”

“did you see her take them both?”

“no i found this one in her jacket pocket when i was looking for clothes for today it fell out when i picked her jacket up off the floor. and the other one she took in the bathroom last night.”

“but did you watch her take it.”

“no i shouldn’t have to.”

“i don’t know you know Nicki she can be pretty sneaky when she wants to be.”

“yeah i know that’s why I’m trying to figure out what to do.” safaree said placing the stick back in nicki’s pocket.

“well what you gone do?”

“i don’t know.”

“well shes going to the doctors today.”

“she is?”

“yeah she just had me make the appointment for 12.”

“so i guess that’s my answer then but why would she lie?”

“who knows man?”

“well if she didn’t pee on this stick who did?”

“where did she go yesterday?”

“LAUREN!”

“what about Lauren?”

“Nicki said walking past safaree and martin.”

“martin likes Lauren.”

“what!” martin said turning to look at safaree.

“man don’t play cuz Nicki came in the room. you like Lauren.”

“is that true martin you like Lauren?” Nicki said looking at martin.
martin looked at safaree and they exchanged looks. martins look reading come on man please don’t make me do this, and safarees reading man come on take on for the team.

“yeah but please Nicki don’t say anything.”

“what are we in high school?”

“no i just don’t know about it yet.”

“oh OK.”
……

11:00….

“Nicki don’t you have some place to be?”

“yes.. wait how did you… MARTIN!”

“what what did i do know?”

“you told safaree?”

“was i not suppose to?”

“yeah was he not suppose to?”

safaree and martin stood looking at Nicki. safaree sat on the couch to put on his shoes.

“no.. i mean i really don’t care.”

“that yell didn’t sound like a i don’t care yell.”

“no one was yelling safaree.”

“OK then lets go.”

“wait where are you going?”

“with you to the doctors. your going because you think your pregnant right?”

“ummm. huh no I’m going because you told me my health is improtant.”

“well lets go then.”

“OK but i still don’t understand why your going safaree.” Nicki said putting on her coat.”

“because i wanna make sure my baby is OK.” safaree said kissing nicki’s fore head.

“well OK i guess.” Nicki said grabbing for the door.

the whole drive to the office was quiet. Nicki sat looking out the window thinking. she was wondering if she should tell him or pretend to find it out together.

the things i do for my barbs.. she thought to her self.

“OK safaree its something i want to tell you.”

“and whats that Nicki?” safaree said not looking at her.

“umm. nothing never mind.”

“no what did you want to tell me i swear i hate when you do that.”

“do what?”

“bring things up then say nevermind.”

“its nothing.” she said

“oh ok.”

“you’ll figure it out sooner or later.” she mumbled.

“what?”

“nothing baby.”
they pulled uo to the private doctors office and sfaree opened her door. they walked tot he door and safaree opened it for her.

“Nicki?”

“yes how are you.”

“I’m good long time no see.”

“i know I’m so busy i never have time to come in here any more”

“still with drake?”

“no. umm accually I’m with safaree now.”

“oh so you guys decided to stop playing?”

“what?”

“nothing i just knew it would be a matter of time b4 you to relised that you should be together.”

“i guess your the match maker huh?”

“you know something like that.”

“mmhmm.”

“so what are you here for ma’am.”

“umm.. she said taking a glance at safaree.”

safaree sat in the chair glancing up from the magazine he was reading to look at Nicki.

“just a check up.” she said.

“you sure?”

“yeah.”

“no shes not.” safaree said standing up.

“what you mean I’m not.”

“cuz your not.”

“well since you know everything what else am i here for?”

“this.” he said reaching in her pocket putting the test on the counter.

“safaree?” Nicki said looking at him confused.

“yeah i know about it so just do it Nicki.” safaree said with a bit of attitude.

“nicik?” the girl at the desk said.”

“you heard the man stephanie.” she said in a sad tone.

Nicki grabbed her purse and test from the counter she sat next to safaree garbbing his arm. safaree moved his arm from Nicki’s grasp and put the magazine in her lap open to the page on her and him.

“that onika would have never lied to me.”

“faree please?”

“faree please what? you should have told me in the car like you was going to in the first place.”

“faree please don’t be mad.”

“if you are pregnant Nicki and you did have Lauren pee on that stick like I’m thinking you did i hope its a good reason that you were keeping this child from me.”

Nicki slouched down in her chair tears strolled down her face but she wiped at them before they could ruin her make up.

“ms. maraj?”

“yes?”

“the doctor will see you now.”

to be continued…..

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