LONELY

OK hey y'all.. OK so I've decided not to roll all three of the bad chapters into one lol.. i have add and this story seems tooooooo long. the length of this chapter will be normal and yeah i hope you guys don't kill me.. but it has to happen.. i stick with my first mind and this is where its taking me.. everything in this world is not peaches bunnies and rainbows ;).. be sure to listen to Janet Jackson lonely when your done.. kinda how hb feels.. muah love ya punkins!! COMMENT OR ELSE!!!


Nicki closed the door to her house. she turned and sprinted down the street no shoes  long shirt boy shorts and all. she stopped once she got up to him and began to punch him in the back.

"you slept with her safaree!"

"you fucked drake so why does it matter!"

"it matters because that's my fucking doctor safaree!"

"wait why the fuck are you out here like that?"

"why the fuck do you  care? i want fucking answers safaree i don't care what i have on or don't for that matter i wear less than this in my fucking videos."

"i mean i still don't see why it matters.why do you care?"

"you played me safaree!"

"what the fuck are you talking about Nicki? played you how? when? for who?" he said giving her this confused face.

"in the doctors office with that bitch! i was invisible when she was in the room like i didn't even exist. all flirting with her directly in my face and she. then she asked you who the fuck i was and I'm back to being you fucking best friend."

"nobody was playing you for her. did you forget i was mad at you for not telling me you took a pregnancy test. oh yeah none of that is relevant huh? why are females so fucking insecure now days?"

"insecure? insecure safaree i I'm Michelle I'm Carmel skin i have more ass and curves than Nicki i have long hair I'm a doctor and by the way ms maraj you shave two babies about to come out of your fucking pussy in seven months." she said punching him in the chest with the  five words.

"you know what Nicki your a fucking trip. your pregnant with my kids my fucking kids fucking another man and this is all on me. right never expected it to be any different. but you  know what fuck this and fuck you!"

Nicki reached back and hit safaree in the face for his last comment safaree grew angry and grabbed her by her arms.

"what you gone do nigga? you gone hit me? go ahead and try and see what happens if you do."
safaree let her go and turned around.

"maybe if you fucking did hit me id  at least know you gave a damn!" she spat as safaree rubbed down his face.

safaree walked away saying nothing. up the stairs grabbing hold to the knob on his  front door.

"safaree where the fuck are you going we are not done." Nicki said following him.

"come back and talk to me damn it!"

Nicki ran after safaree falling landing on her stomach. she  pushed her self off the ground sitting in the middle of the yard. she began to examine her self looking at the blood drip down her knee. safaree kept walking watching the whole thing through the glass door. he turned to see tears flowing down Nicki's face.

"see what the fuck i mean this right here is what I'm fucking talking about Nicki!" safaree said dropping his keys on the floor going to help Nicki up.

"you don't fucking think about anybody but your self!"

"safaree leave me alone i can do it my self its just a scraped knee."she said pushing him away.

"its more than that you could have really fucking hurt your self! my kids! your always doing some extra shit that not needed!" he said picking her up off the ground carrying her into the house.

"i swear the more shit you do it makes me fucking wonder where my fucking best friend went. lately i don't see her and this new person i don't know. the person i fell in love with has to be lost some where." he said taking the towel cleaning up her knee.

safaree finished helping her get cleaned up and left. Nicki sat in his bed wondering if he'd ever come back any time soon. she curled up in the bed and drifted off to sleep.
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A week later...
Nicki sat in the bed in her sweats. for a week it was the same routine for her wake up handle business talk to martin through skype. do interviews through skype. chat it up with the barbs go back to sleep. her hair sat a mess on the top of her head and after she would take a bath shed just put on anything and get back in the bed.

"i need a dog or something to keep me company. i cant do this its too quiet around here. maybe i can get a liddle dog like me. a girl because god forbid i get a boy dog and he is just that a fucking DOG!"

Nicki grabbed her mac book and began to search for dogs. she had always wanted a yorkie but she wanted it to be smaller that the normal ones. she was thinking one she could dress up in little cute clothes and put in loui v bags and carry around with her.

"hmmm.. toy yorkies. this thing is cute she said."

@NICKIMINAJ: hey barbz what do you think about mama getting a pet?

@NICKIMINAJ RT @ITSMARTHABITCH: a pet hb but your never home?<< that's why ill get a small dog so i can take her places with me and it wont be a problem.

@NICKIMINAJ: other people have pets barbs..

@NICKIMINAJ RT @billionaireken : others ain't winning like you though hb. <<< you have a point but thats why its going to be small.

@NICKIMINAJ RT @stillirisetm: hb if you do get something like a toy yorkie. <<< that's what I'm looking at now and barbs its soo cute.

@NICKIMINAJ: OK barbs lots to do i need to pick one of these cut liddle dogs then go get some thing for her. so ill tweet a pic later OK. love ya barbz mmmmmuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!

@SCAFFBEEZY: a dog? really?

Nicki looked at the tweet and felt empty inside. she knew if safaree was here he would talk her out of getting the dog. but she would get it any way. she continued scrolling down the pictures of the puppies and found the one she wanted. she made a few calls  fixed at her hair and headed for the door.

"hi how are you ms maraj."

"I'm fine and you?"

"I'm great. so you ready to see minnie?"

"aww she has a name?" Nicki said with a sad look on her face.

"no we just call her that because shes the smallest of the bunch."

"oh OK."

the lady took Nicki over to the pin and Nicki's eyes darted around looking for the little dog. she found her and by the looks of it the dog found Nicki.

"ill take her."

"are you sure minnie may have alot of complications."

"she cant be more complicated than what my life is now yeah I'm sure i want her."

"minnie your going home today." the lady said reaching for the small dog.

"I think ill keep that name. it fits her." Nicki grabbing for the small dog.

minnie climbed up to Nicki's face and sniffed at it. Nicki smiled and pulled the dog back down.

"i promise your going to love your new home were going to have all sorts of fun."

after sinning a few papers and paying the lady minnie was finally hers. she walked to her car with the dog and fastened her in the front seat in the doggy car seat she instructed martin to get for her.

@NICKIMINAJ: me and minnie on our way home. your going to love her barbz ill ustream when i get home!

"hello martin?"

"yes Nicki?"

"did you get everything i asked you to get?"

"yes and the people are here working on the room for you too."

"its not the rooms we had for the babies is it?"

"no its the one down stairs."

"but don't we have five rooms total up stairs? i don't think i want her room that far away."

"safarees old room. but it still has all his things in there."

"take it out put it somewhere tell him to come get it or something."

"but Nicki they started the room all ready."

"well tell them to un start it. you know what never mind its fine downstairs may be better until i can get her use to go to the potty out side."

"you sure?"

"yeah I'm sure. just make sure they do a good job."

"OK when will you guys be here. because its alot of noise."

"i guess we will just go to auntie Lauren's house until they are done."

"OK ill call you when they finish."

Nicki hung up the phone and then called Lauren.

"Nicki?"

"yup what you doing?"

"nothing at home you need me?"

"no I'm going to come visit though."

"you sound better than you did a few days ago whats up?"

"i got a dog."

"what Nicki you don't like dogs."

"yes i do i just said i don't like big dogs."

"what kind of dog did you get?"

" a  tea cup yorkie."

"aww it sounds cute."

"it is wait till you see it."

"wait a minute your bringing that thing here."

"don't be rude Lauren she can hear you and yes I'm bringing her with me. her room is not quite ready yet plus i need to ask you something."

"OK Nicki but you better keep a eye on her."

"i will i promise."

Nicki pulled up in Lauren's drive way. she got out the car and could her minnie whine.

"OK baby mamas not going to leave you in the car." she said opining up the passenger door taking minnie out of the car seat.

Lauren opened the door and let Nicki in. the dog was so small she didn't notice Nicki had it in her hands.

"Nicki where is the dog?"

"right here . man Lauren i keep telling you i think you need glasses."

"Nicki shut the hell up. awww shes soooo cute. where did you get her from."

"some pets place down the street from my house."

"did they have any more i want one."

"tons but she was the cutest." Nicki said setting the now napping dog in her lap."

"so what did you wanna tell me."

"i need you to go to this next appointment with me."

"no that's what safaree is for."

"he fucked her Lauren."

"he did what?"

"he fucked her."

"well i don't think i want you going to that doctor any more."

"OK fuck what you think shes the best."

"OK and its plenty more of them here in cali you just have to ask around."

"i also wanna keep tabs on her Lauren damn."

"Nicki you know bitches now days ain't got all they marbles. and if she trys to harm you or my un born nieces or nephews bitch will get popped!"

"i know i know. but just for now until i know i have safaree back and i don't have to worry about her any more."

"what do you mean until you have safaree back."

"well i umm.."

"Nicki what did YOU do?"

"i fucked drake." Nicki said fast touching the back of her neck.

"WHILE YOUR PREGNANT NICKI!"

Nicki jumped and the puppy began to bark.

"oh shut up dog!" Lauren screamed at the puppy.

"well i wasn't showing a week ago you couldn't really tell and i just wanted to get back a safaree."

"what do you mean get back at safaree?"

"for making me feel less than what i was at the doctors."

"Nicki I'm not understanding you?"

"Lauren he sat in that room flirting with that bitch the whole time she was doing that ultrasound. no telling what went on when they stepped out for me to change a whole fucking 15 minutes."

"that's no reason for you to fuck drake."

"i know i wasn't thinking."

"that's clear." Lauren said getting up from the couch going in the kitchen.

"so will you go with me."

"yeah but like i said before I'm not doing this for you I'm doing this cuz if the bitch try to be slick and fuck with the babies she gone get hurt! as for you and safaree y'all need to fix this shit! you were both wrong and y'all just need to make up and at least began to move past this before it get to become too late and them babies get here."

"i know." Nicki said rubbing the back of her neck.

Nicki looked down at her phone which didn't seem to be ringing but it was a call coming through.

"hello?"

"yeah Nicki?"

"martin who in the hell did you call."

"you i called you."

"well?"

"oh the room is ready you can come back when your ready."

"they used wall paper instead of paint right?"

"yes."

"OK I'm on my way back."

"see you when you get here. on and Nicki."

Nicki had hung up before she could hear martins warning.
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Nicki let the dog down on the marbled floor and set her keys in the bowl.
she searched the House for martin and heard the TV coming from her study. martin never sat in her study so she wondered who could have been in there.

"martin?"

"yeah?" he said coming from the kitchen.

"if your in there eating all my damn food. who in the hell is in my study?"

"your mom."

"my mom what the hell is she doing here. and why didn't you tell me this on the phone!"

"is that the dog? and i did try to tell you. but you hung up before i got it out."

"i need an invitation to come see my daughter now?" ms carol said coming out of Nicki's study.

"no mommy I'm happy to see you."

"onika? are you? are you pregnant?"

"yes mommy."

"when were you going to tell me?"

"when things were right mommy but why are you here?"

"because i had a dream about fish. but then i aslo had a dream relating to depression, rage and pain. so i had to come check on you."

"wheres daddy and lamb chop."

"home baby. how far along are you?"

"ill be four months next week."

"that far? when did you find out?"

"last week mommy."

"where is safaree?"

"long story mommy but can i get minnie some food."

"who's minnie the baby?"

"no." Nicki said laughing.

"well who is minnie then. and chile whats so funny?"

"minnie is my dog mommy."

"oh well i don't see any dog onika."

"shes hiding behind my legs." Nicki said moving to the side so her mom could see the dog.

"oh shes so darling onika when did you get her?"

"a few hours ago. martin did you put her bowls in her room?"

"yes."

"and this room is just how i asked for it to be?"

"yes ma'am."

"you gave the dog a room?"

"yes mama"

"what about the baby?"

"they have rooms too ma."

"THEY onika!"

"yeah its two ma. and please dot yell it scares her."

"I'm sorry it just caught me off guard. i mean twins run in our family but i never thought i would be you to carry them."

"well its me."

"why don't you sound to happy about it baby. they are blessings in their own way."

"i know that ma but i told you things are a mess here."

"well i wont be able to fully understand until you tell me something onika."

"OK ma when I'm ready ill tell you but right now I'm just not ready." Nicki said heading for the dogs bed room.



Nicki took a look around the room and put the dog down. she walked into the little hut with the dog bed inside to see if it was just how she wanted it.

"martin where is the little ramp we talked about? you see how tiny she is how will she get on the bed if she wanted to be up there? and where is her bowls? there are not toys here and where is the doggy door i told you to make sure they made?"

"i thought you meant a doggy door to the back yard which is made but ill call them back and have them put one in here. the ramp has not gotten here yet but its on its way."

"OK I'm trusting you to get this right."

"onika if the dogs room looks like this i wonder how the babies room will look."

"i have that all set too mommy but its a surprise." Nicki said rubbing her belly.

(what Nicki's baby bump looks like)

Nicki walked towards her room she sat on her bed and opened her mack book.

"onika when will you be ready to tell me whats wrong?"

"give me an hour ma i promised the barbs something and then i will explain to you."

"OK ill be in your study."

"OK."

@NICKIMINAJ: OK barbz lets chat. i only have an hour though. and i have some good news too.

safaree continued to get her tweets to his phone so he grabbed his mac book and opened the stream.

"OK barbs. Nicki said adjusting the screen. so i have alot to tell you guys." she said as she watched the numbers go up and the chat move a bit faster.

Nicki looked down at her phone and back up at the screen.

omg did you see her belly! shes going to tell us shes pregnant!

Oomg omg like our spoiled time has come to an end.

pissingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg!

y'all shut up she may want to tell us something else

where is safaree

yo where the coon at

omg omg omg I'm fucking pissing right now o fucking nika

what are y'all spazing about shes not pregnant!

fucking cfs i hate them!

Nicki blinked as she tried to adjust her eyes to the screen.

"OK barbz so let me get this out of the way because my mommy wants to talk to me about something. so you  guys have noticed you've been seeing less and less of sb. we've been dating you guys but don't tell anyone. its between mama and the barbz."

Nicki reached for minnie who was now in the room.

"this is minnie guys. ain't she cute?"

awww shes so cute hb

what you and safaree

nooooooooooooooooooooo not safaree

where is the coon then

hb whats going on you don't look happy

oooooooonnnnnniiiiikkkkaaaafareeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

"you guys are funny. and yes its onikafaree. umm also you guys will have a few additions to the family. and you will be nice!."

omg she is pregnant

like wtffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff yoooo shes pregnant

yo she having more than one baby though did you hear her.

omg we only have like 15 more minutes left come on hb spit everything out!!

"ok guys next week Friday i find out what I'm having. and yes safaree is the father. i just wanted to let you guys know because I'm starting to show and i didn't want you guys to find out from those nasty blogs. but now i have to go. love you guys sooo much. iiittttttsssss bbbbaaaaarrrrbbbbiiiiieeee biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii." Nicki turned off the ustream and closed her mack book.

"ma!" she said walking down the hall looking for her mother.

"i told you id be in the study!"

 Nicki walked into her study her mom laying across the couch. she sat in between her mothers legs and lay her head back onto her mothers belly.

"mommy?"

"yes onika."

"when you and daddy got into huge fights how did you guys get over what was said and done?"

"that's something i cant explain to you onika. its called unconditional love. i love your father through every thing hes has put this family through. always true to my vows. is this about you and safaree?"

"yeah i think i really messed up this time ma." Nicki said trying to catch the tears so they would not roll back onto her mothers shirt.

"messed up how onika?"

"i.. mommy i.. i slept with drake."

"you did what onika!"

"i slept with drake but he slept with my doctor who is his ex girl friend the same day."

"wait onika so you both cheated the same day?"

"yeah."

"are the babies safarees onika? please tell me you know."

"yes mommy they both are his."

"how do you know?"

"well because the cheating happened last week."

ms carol smacked Nicki in the head.

"LAST WEEK ONIKA!"

 minnie stood in the door way and began to whine.

"mommy shhhhhh! shes never going to like it here."

"i don't care about that dog onika! how could you be so careless!"

"you sound like safaree ma. i just wasn't thinking."

"you damn right you weren't thinking!"

"mommy please i just really need your help. i love safaree. i really want him to come home."

"i don't know the relationship between you and safaree but if you do get him to come home you better not let anything like this happen ever again! do you hear me?"

"yes ma'am."





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OK you guys that its for that chapter I've decided to spare your lives and be nice... smh not suchh\ a horrible chapter you know.. but yeah the next chapter will include a visit from candi... a trip to the doctors... and some more good stuff.. just always remember with my story you will never in a million years know who the wolf is.. lol i haven't said that since my story was on tumblr but yeah.. NEVER (evil laugh)... COMMENT OR ELSE!!!